zarathustra

Typical!! Mere days after I sign up for BuddySlim, my house was broken into and my laptop stolen. Brilliant. Utterly brilliant. However, internet deprivation has not been my excuse for Cherry Coke and Krispy Kremes. Knowing that someone made the effort to [successfully] violate my privacy and make off with my stuff is both immensely frustrating and upsetting. There was nothing important on my laptop, but it was my laptop. Either way, I responded to such an event by pigging out. And I feel disgusting. I’m at the point where I feel uncomfortable in my own skin and my clothes serve no purpose except to camouflage rolls of fat.

I hate being the size I am because everyone at work is slimmer than me, so I feel like the porker of the lot. The same goes for uni, and I’d love to slim down even if it’s just to make my rival jealous. It’s very petty and childish but she’s a snotty cow who has always been rude to me.

 Well, there’s nothing I can do about thieves. I’ve told the police everything I know, SOCO have searched the house twice for fingerprints (although it transpires the offenders wore gloves), and local CCTV is being scanned for clues. I’ll be applying anti-climb paint and barbed wire to the fence, installing a security light and installing tracking devices on all future laptops. What else can I do? And is there any point in beating myself up about it with food? No. Self sabotage isn’t going to get me anywhere.

 On a lighter note, I passed the second year of uni